paradox

the voices in my head grew stronger the day love left

I’ve never felt more alive and dead at the same time with you by my side / i remember thinking how we will always be a part of 

all that is

All that was,and ,

all that will be/ I remember us talking about quantum physics once, I never told you but I always believed In the theory of quantum entanglement, it is what happens when 2 particles interact so profoundly with one another over time and then separate ,that the act of observing one instantaneously defines the other , no matter the vastness of separation . Space and time fail to intervene ,for their respective correlations are already woven into the very fabric of reality itself. before you I always thought how I  would never truly be able to understand how someone is the way that they are but my love you’ve tangled yourself in every molecule of my being and I learnt you can only understand someone if you feel them in yourself . I’ve always had a habit of reaching out for things that are out of my reach , 

The moon ,

The space and 

You .

I wanted every bit of ‘not to be around ‘ than ‘it will make sense one day’ ,

I look at you and you often  make sense 

You often lurk around in the devoid cold .

We’re scared yet we need to be loved . 

I crave to be held, you like holding on ,

It’s the sensation of need that frightened me the most as if I’d lifted the lid on an unstoppable abyss .

 I’m vanishing yet the feelings are profound with raw appreciation. It’s overwhelming.

you diminished the intensity 

You will always be my favourite poem ; 

in everything and everywhere we’re still alive , we still exist .